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- "Can't Stop the Music (Heat of the Moment)" - here be stories related to Mystery Spot.
Deleted: Harsh Realities
by hellesofbellesI'm all you need
by obliviousworldsStay Still
by supercellchaserThe Most Important Thing
by 50boysWhy Did You Do It
by I Love Supernatural
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Can't Stop the MusicOver and Over and Over Again
He still dreams about it.Redux
If there is a way to break out of here and save Dean, then he has to take it, right?
Testing Lucifer's PromiseHindsight 20-20
by The Bookkeeper (also here
Being in the same room isn't the same as being together. Someone decides that Dean needs a little extra kick to get him back in gear with his brother before it's too late. The Lucifer Problem
Dean and Sam try to make it work, but after Heaven, it becomes clear to Dean that it would be best to separate. Sam decides to let Dean stop the apocalypse, while Sam takes on the Lucifer problem. After all, if Lucifer doesn't have a true vessel to take, he'll be that much easier to defeat. Sam goes off the grid, and not even Castiel can find him.
UST/WincestThe Dark Interior Life of Sam Winchester
Sam spent a lot of time imagining how he would kill himself. It was the most fucked up thing he did, which is saying something for someone who got off at least once a week while imagining his brother’s perfect lips wrapped around his cock.
None of the AboveFade To Black
John is dead, leaving both his sons grief-stricken and confused. They slowly make their way to Sioux Falls where Dean begins to heal with the help of Bobby and his beloved Impala. Sam, though, is silently spiralling into despair and he can only hold on for so long.Get Hurt
"I'm going to go get my brother some cholesterol. And then I'm going to go get drunk." I'm holding a gun to my head (and I think I might pull the trigger)
He's done some terrible things. He's hurt people, broken families, betrayed people who trusted him. People he loved. Maybe Dean was right. Maybe he is a monster. He wonders if a bullet will fix it all.Sammy's Problem
Sam was beaten by John as a kid, and since then has cut himself to relieve the pain. This time, he decides to end it all. Can Dean save him again, this time from himself? Wrung Out
Even both times Dean had died since then, Sam hadn’t really managed to cry.