ex-bettenoire (ithuriel788) wrote,

Updates/Additions to Suicidal Sam - Compendium I - May 2, 2014

Updates/Additions to Suicidal Sam - Compendium I - May 2, 2014

Check out rirren's suicidal!sam gifset! It's suicidal!sam! It's picspam! It's . . . well, you get the picture. Well, rirren" got the picture for you!

Three of the new stories are from Mystery Spot - I may need to add a new category (Heat of the Moment, unless someone suggests something better?)

26 stories added:


Lay Me Down by stripeypirate
"How can you leave me here, Sammy? Alone, with him?" In which the Winchester family is falling apart at the seams.

Nothing by ymasp
What happens when it all becomes too much for a 14 year old Sammy? WIP

So Dean won't have to

Overdose by tifaching (also here)
If Dean won’t keep his promise to put him down Sam’s going to take care of it himself.

Testing Lucifer's Promise

A Simple Kind of Man by Safiyabat
“Can’t even freaking die right, but it’s not like you need to worry about it, okay? Besides, I thought we were picking hemispheres.”

Diablerie by mara-isamoose
"No matter how many times I try..." Dean's eyebrows knitted together in confusion. He was almost afraid to ask what that could mean. 'Try what'"He just keeps bringing me back." Sam's voice cracked, just like Dean's heart. "Bringing you back from what, Sam?" Sam's only response was clicking off the safety of his gun.

Sam's Revelation by Quiet.crash
AU where Sam decides to test out Lucifer's words and then it all just goes downhill. WIP

I started the Apocalypse

Bye, Sam by Britt Kay (also here)
"G'bye, Dean." Sam whispered into the night as he raised the gun to his head

You're Stuck With Me by TrekkieL
Sam can't cope with being a hunter anymore, so decides to end his life. As he places the barrel to his temple, he apologises to Gabriel, not realising the Archangel can actually hear him. Gabriel is less than happy with Sam, and attempts to help him by sharing a winter memory. Established Sabriel. Some Destiel.

It ends when you can't take it anymore

And On We Go by center_galaxy
“I promise you,” He continues, fingering tightening ever so slightly on the trigger. “Everything is going to be okay.”

Breathe Into Me by hidden_messages
“Of course it’s your fault; you’re Sam Winchester.”

Devil's Ridin' Shotgun by Welcome to my House of Mirrors
Without moving his gaze from the living room entryway, Sam held the thumb and forefinger of his right hand under his chin.

Humpty Dumpty by center_galaxy (also here)
"Castiel never understood why a nursery rhyme about a broken egg was so important until after he broke Sam's wall. Now, the angel is left to pick up the pieces and try to put Sam back together again."

It Ends When by RainbowBetty
A series of Hallucifer drabbles (now complete!) on the many ways Luci tortures Sam with this: "End it? This? The paint slowly peeling off your walls, come on, man why would I end it? It ends when you can't take it anymore."


What You Don't Know by silvery-midnight
Things haven't been the same after Dean's return from Purgatory. As the distrust and secrecy between the brothers grow, Dean's questioning how true Sam's story of that time is. Especially when something's so obviously off about Sam.

When You Were Gone bytheperksofhavingatimeturner
This time it was Sam's turn to look away, refusing to believe he was actually going to tell Dean this now, after everything they'd been through, and everything he could lose.

The Penny Dropped

Family Problems Finally Resolved by MagicoftheWorld
When Dean told Sam in season 8 that Benny was a better brother than him it broke Sam. After the voicemail and the amulet trashing, it was only a matter of time until Sam broke.

While You Were Gone by waya88
What was the point of even being alive? Everyone who he loved was dead, more importantly, Dean was gone. WIP

Season 9 - IDEK

the night was all you had by brokenlittleboy
A sort of band-aid for the issues that Sam and Dean are struggling with this season. Sam and Dean finally talk, and also hug and cry a lot.

Time To Let Go by zubeneschamali
Sam's only been himself again for a few months when an old enemy threatens to end his life for good. Can he trust Dean to save him, or is it better to just let go?

None of the Above

After You by Aerith Queen of Cetra
Tag to 3x11 "Mystery Spot" :. This time, Dean... I'll go first. One-shot

Blood Ties by KB49
Dean threw away the amulet. Sam understands. He's considering throwing away his life. One-shot

Day Seventy-Four by caranfindeli
Day 74 in Broward County. Sam is falling apart; Dean tries to help put him back together. (Mystery Spot)

It's A Wonderful Life (Really, it is by CaptainLucifer
Sam pushes himself up and looks around at the papers scattered all over his desk like they might hold some deeper meaning or an answer for him. They don't, of course. And then he stands up and crosses the room and opens a desk drawer to look inside like it might hold an answer for him. It does. And it's in the shape of a gun.
AU Sam/Lucifer

Last Resort by rirren (also here) and here)
Dean keeps dying and Sam can't change that. But Sam's last resort might just be the last thing he ever does. (Mystery Spot)

Perfect Timing by moosiferlove
The angels are pressuring Sam to take his role as Lucifer's vessel. Sam, who is no stranger to self-harm, decides that the easiest escape would be to kill himself. But what happens when Gabriel walks in on him? And what will the consequences of his actions be when the rest of their quirky little family finds out? WIP

Stars in a Bottle by NotQuiteInsane
"Break. You're already broken. It shouldn't take much to crush yourself to dust."
Tags: compendia, spn, suicidal!sam, update
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